Am I a script kiddie ?

There is a question that is bothering me for a while -

So I actually do have an understanding of networking, machines, computers, computing, data etc -

I can discuss about variety of cyber attacks and defends ranging from basic network attacks to zero-day attacks, zero-clicks, written exploits, advanced man-in-the-middle attacks -

I can talk about the logic, the path, and the working algorithm of cyber tools aka weapons - while not being the best on writing them, I have a good understanding on how they work and operate -

I successfully completed tryhackme course - got mid skills in CTF and stuff -

I have a mid understanding of ESP32 and radioing -

I can monitor and make great defenses which I am experienced on (worked 2 years as Server Admin) -

I'm into cryptology too - I wrote my own pack of security apps (a network monitor like Wireshark and a basic password db - while not being really good, they are some basic projects) - also I have a 800MB Linux Debian distro named orionslastwish -

My main field is anonimity, monitoring and defensive -

BUT -

I cannot make simple attacks like gaining control over social media accounts, gaining wifi passwords ( I can use Wireshark and stuff ) -

And when I talk and discuss about these things and when people ask me to do anything - 70% of the time I cannot - while a skiddie can do easily -

Most of the time a mid skiddie can outclass me in most of the specs - while I can crush them when I'm on the defensive -

So, in the outside world, skiddies are literally seen better than me - and I couldn't get into some jobs because of this -

And a question got into my head - what if I never surpassed the limits of a skiddie?

I cannot even do basic things and people call me "all bark no bite" because of this -

I can only do basic recons and surveillance - but can't even make proper DDOS, DOS, brute-force, exploits, zero-click and stuff -

Am I considered as a script kiddie ? Please be honest it's so important

Sorry for my bad english - I am multilingual